lazy schmazy

Sometimes we stay in our robes all day long and watch halloweenish movies like jumanji and eat pumpkin chocolate chip cookies and then take naps in between. 

As of late

Our garden has reached the end of it's life span. I was so excited for our watermelons, which 20 pound expectations... ended in 1-2 pounds personal sized melons. (they were good though!)

  

I'm healing and getting better everyday.... emotionally and physically. Especially after Conference. We're trying to be completely content with our lives right NOW. Not hoping or wishing for something different until it happens. I love my life right now, and I love my Jor. We're so happy- now if we could just slow it down a little bit- and give us more 4 days weekends, I wouldn't complain one bit. 

It's almost Halloween! I get kind of sad, maybe you can call it holiday-al depression (not really) but I get sad when Holidays come and go so fast. So this Halloween season, every spare second me and Jor are trying to listen to Halloween stations on Pandora (which are really funny and really strange)... decorate.. do pumkin-ish things... Really enjoy- the seasons so I won't get so seasonally- sad. Ha.

I'm so excited about my Halloween/Fall flavored house-

We decided we needed a get-away. Just something small... So Wednesday after work we picked up a pizza and some 32 oz drinks and drove to Ogden.  The Alaskan Inn!! 

Your own little cabin. Unlimited movies. Custom breakfast at your front door. Hot tub (in room).

Totally what we needed!

I finally exercised. After the Inn we drove up Ogden canyon to do our first mountain bike trip since my surgeries. It was hard. and I was slow. And I'm guessing I looked pretty pathetic because a couple passerbys decided they need to give me words of encouragement while Jory waited at the top of the hill for me. But it felt good, and sadly now I don't have the excuse that I "medically" have reasons to not work out. Darn. :)

"I'm mastering the japanese art of karaoke"

So the Scottster had another slumber party with us last night and we decided to take him to Applebees for 1/2 off appetizers and karaoke...which by the way, the appetizers weren't appetizing. I don't know why I seem to forget that every time we go.

He was planning on singing on his own if they had payphone by maroon 5 ... his favorite song of course- but... no such luck. 

So, next best option?

A Whole New World with his awesome brother in law.

He ended with shouting out, "nailed it!" and then proceeded to do the worm. 

How can you not love this kid?!

fall, fall, fall

I've been doing some photo shoots lately. 

It's been tons of fun and totally great because I've been able to see all these beautiful places. Isn't it crazy that if we don't make an effort to see these places we won't ever see them?

 

 

 

 

What a funny man I've got

GOURD

I love warty, colorful, mis-shapen gourds around fall time! 

Two years ago I stupidly tried to save some because they were just so darn cute. (and only like a buck each so I don't know why I tried?) - by popping them into one of my halloween/fall storage containers and forgetting about it until last year. When I opened up that storage container so excited to transition my house to pumpkinville I ended up being completely grossed out and disapointed with what I found. 

Moldy covered everything. My dang gourds rotted. (of course)

So, the beauty of having an empty lot behind us- I threw all of that moldy sickness out and thought nothing of it! 

Until- dot dot dot

A month or so ago we found a strange plant kabooming in the lot behind us. This monster is literally over 20 feet long.

GOURDS!

(if you have to know- yes, my hair is not brushed. or washed. or even thought about for at least 3 days when this picture was taken)

27 gourds and counting! 

moving on

When it rains, it pours, doesn't it?

I mean, sometimes you speak too soon. Too soon as in the surgery you had last month, it didn't work. You had to get a shot of that awful stuff methotrexate that you were so grateful that you didn't have to get. You also, on September 11, 2012 had to go in for another emergency surgery, and they took one of your fallopian tubes. You also thought you lucked out cause you hit your insurance deductible. But, your deductible started over, 9/01/2012.

Sometimes you feel sorry for yourself. You feel like all you are is left empty, scarred up and so sore you can't even shower yourself. You're left aching for something you don't even know what your aching for exactly. On top of it all the money you had saved for something real awesome goes to medical bills. And what you hoped and prayed for- that baby. Is still not here and it feels even more real than the first time you went through it.

Sometimes you feel bitter. Frustrated. Depressed. Left behind and forgotten. 

But. You get a email from your little brother, who's in Sweden serving his mission and he reminds you of something. Something that wraps and picks you up. 

I'm not alone... and I'm grateful for my Savior.


And I love my Jay!